Thursday, November 16, 2006

You only cherish it when it's gone...

knowing that it won't happen

but it doesn't stop you from trying

coz there's always hope even in despair

~Dream Gazer

Feeling so dam sad...even though the blog just turned 1 year old yesterday at 15th November, but...just looking at the blog brings back sad memories of Maple. I worked so hard to get so far, but in the end does it even matter?

Obviously not, since my maple isn't working...it just feels so painful. When I watch my third job video, I used to think of victory, but now I think of reminiscing(dunno how to spell) those moments.

Is this really the breakdown? Seperated from friends in class, lousy subject combination and now maple can't work...oh god! Could it be the voodoo? I pray not.

But here's a quick recap over the past year...

Maple Comics which helped boosted the blog's popularity

...but can no longer be filmed now T.T

Posting many happy moments of Maple on the blog

...but can't be posted now T.T

Talking about LAN and stuff

...and now getting really sick of it T.T

Got scammed of an esther and eventually formed JRC

...but does it even matter now

Changed the blog layout so it'd be cooler

...although looking at it makes me sad

Added the caption contest which only lasted for a week

...but now even the funniest captions turn me off

In conclusion...I'm just extremely disappointed.

Today's mood:

Sad

Thought of the day: Would things have been better off if I never even knew Maple in the first place??? (I know the sentence sounds retarded, but it makes a hell lot of sense to me)